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Roger davies
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(Source: dishonoronyourcoww, via keaneart)
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勇
（１）有膽量；果敢。如：勇氣；勇士；智勇雙全。《說文‧力部》：“勇，气也。”段玉裁注：“勇者，氣也，氣之所至，力亦至焉。”《玉篇‧力部》：“勇，果決也。”《論語‧憲問》：“仁者不憂，知者不惑，勇者不懼。”漢賈誼《道術》：“持節不恐謂之勇，反勇為怯。”毛澤東《七律‧人民解放軍佔領南京》：“宜將剩勇追窮寇，不可沽名學霸王。”
（２）兇猛。《廣韻‧腫韻》：“勇，猛也。”《莊子‧盜跖》：“勇悍果敢，聚血率兵，此下德也。”三國魏曹植《白馬篇》：“狡捷過猴猿，勇剽若豹螭。”《紅樓夢》第三十五回：“寶玉素厭勇男蠢婦的。”
（３）兵士。北魏崔鴻《十六國春秋‧前秦錄‧苻堅》：“天錫率勁勇五萬來拒，戰于赤岸，涼師大潰。”唐楊乘《甲子歲書事》：“犒功椎萬牛，募勇懸千帛。”清譚嗣同《仁學下》：“或散於數千里外，欲歸不得，淪為乞丐，而殺游勇之令又特殘酷。”
（４）姓。《萬姓統譜‧腫韻》：“勇，見《姓苑》。”
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Water color, by yours truly, on 16th Oct, 2011.
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Rant on reality and the shit that’s to be done.
Ok I guess I’m just going to rant about all the shit that has to be done in order to achieve my goal. Yeah don’t give me all the no pain no gain crap. I fucking know that. Everybody fucking knows that. I just want to rant, so fuck off you preachers.
An art school in Germany.
So far the art school websites I’ve seen listed on Wiki are pretty much all in German, and I almost can’t understand shit. That’s not going to be good if I want to enroll in these schools. The ones that have English pages either don’t interest me, or are in cities off my priority list. The only one that seems promising is Berlin University of the Arts, where there’s a bachelor’s degree on fine arts such as painting. Problem one is it’s so fucking expensive. Problem two is it requires the German language ability of B2 which means I’d better be studying my ass off every day for the next three months of being here in Germany, and had better start conversing in German. Problem three is they require a portfolio of 20~30 works. I have just about 5, and they all suck pretty bad.
Sum: 1. Money; 2. German; 3. Portfolio.
An art school in France.
Face it. If the Germans don’t use English in art schools, you can bet there are no English courses in fucking France. If I want to apply for one, I’d better start French courses when I go back to Taiwan and just work it like mad.
Sum: 1. French. That’s one big enough problem to begin with.
An art school in Belgium.
I love Brussels, and I would love to study there, but so far the schools don’t interest me. I’ll need to look into it.
An art school in other counrties.
Ok, where? Zurich is going to be fucking hard to get into and to pay for; Spain, I have zero Spanish…fuck, my French is even better than my Spanish; Poland, what?? Austria, should I?
I guess I’d better look more into it, but I just don’t see prospect so far. It’s hard not to despair, because of the few schools that have courses that are of interest to me, all have very tough requirements. I’ll have to work hard to get it, harder than anything I’ve ever done, even including making through Taiwanese high school, because we all knew what to do, and it was just the extreme version of studying, which we’ve done for years. Art? Never heard of anyone my age in Taiwan do it. Of the hundreds of girls and boys my age that I personally know, not one is pursuing an art education.
I’m down a lone and barely trodden path, and it’s just me, my dream, my courage, and my strength. I may not even have support from my parents or teachers. Friends can only do so much. It’s all me. I’ve gotta do it, through grassland or through thorns.
It’s not a pep talk. I’m just acknowledging how alone I am, and how I have literally no one to help me. Plus all the crap that has to be done on a daily basis. (Yeah I have a vague idea of how your life is now, Nick. Fucking on edge.)
When you do think of it, the effort almost seem to weigh down the joy and excitement of learning what I’ve always wanted to learn. FUCK YOU REALITY!!
